Post by TFP on Nov 8, 2008 22:04:07 GMT -4
Sitting on top of a tall bookshelf in a public library, Davidson reads through a book; One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest to be more precise. It's a book that he enjoyed reading as a teenager, something that not too many people will admit. The characters, the plot, everything seemed to go together really well. The climax of the story was weird, for sure, but what's wrong with something being eccentric? As long as you can understand it well enough, that's all that matters. Star Wars doesn't have a word in the dictionary that is able to describe it, but that doesn't mean it didn't mean a thing to anybody. So while you're doing something that you like, have an opinion that you believe in, don't let some punk make fun of you for it. Whose life are you living? Whose life do you want to make happy? Theirs or yours? It's a no-brainer question, folks, don't spend too much time on it.
After flipping through a couple of pages, Davidson nods his head, understanding what he is reading. Big Chief. Chief Bromden, that Native Man that pretends to be deaf and dumb. There are so many people like him in life, isolating themselves from society and while people ridicule them and think of them as morons, they really have a lot of intelligence and could blow you away. You would be astounded by hearing somebody's story if they told it to you. Like Star Wars, there probably wouldn't be a word for that, either. Your reaction, that is. This world is so critical that some people take it to heart and get upset over it. While it does hurt, you shouldn't shed a tear, you should just prove to them that what they're criticising means something to at least somebody, making them feel better about themselves. When was the last time criticism helped anybody? It does more harm then good, even if it's aimed to be friendly.
Finishing up a chapter, Davidson closes the novel and sets it at his side, dog-earing the pages as he applies pressure on the spine of the book with his right palm. He sees the camera dollying from the right, putting him right in the centre. He gives his head a little nod and that smug smirk returns to create that infamous face he's been known for having every day for the past five years. It's annoying, yet it's comical. He has that face that you just want to punch, but at the same time, it should be confined in a frame in a very detailed photograph.
Davidson: "Hurts, don't it?"
That grin grows wider as his posture fixes.
Davidson: "You know, Ramirez, I told you to keep looking over your shoulder to see whether or not I was going to come and assault you - and this time, I was for real. I was standing behind you, steel chair grasped in hand, and you were the victim who I fatally struck. Unfortunately for you, you got an even worse beat down as I crumbled you through a table, having tiny bits of wood turn to splinters, burrowing deep into your back. Fragments of wood should fill every hole in your midsection, you should also feel the bite and scratch every time you roll over in your sleep, causing you to awaken and cry out in pain. Your wounds are my creations, so I must ask, how are they treating you? Or are you still lying there, sound, unable to open your eyes from the sleep in which I put you in? I might as well drop by the hospital and give you a 'Get Well' card to help raise your spirits that are probably in limbo. However, when you open it, I suspect your heart to suddenly stop beating as you'll be reminded of the brutal ordeal you went through that put you where you lay uncomfortably numb. While we had both won our individual matches on Conflict, I walked out the better man that night - but how? It's simple and quite obvious - I walked out with independence while you, on the other hand, had assistance and was wheeled out on a stretcher. Now I know that as soon as you wake up, you're going to be all pissed off about what I did to you and even know the reason why I had done such a thing, but let that be a reminder to you if you have any brain cells left after those brutal collisions between steel and skull. The next time you choose to fuck around with a guy who doesn't give up, let down or want to keep something so important such as the Reckless championship out of their sight - me, for example - shit like this is bound to happen. In the future, it's going to get worse for you - count on it. Understand this; there are more superstars out there, more difficult than me. Make a smart decision for yourself and don't intentionally piss them off because you sit on a throne. Other folks in Fans Wrestling Alliance should also listen up and listen well to what I have to say. Take a look at me, I'm not one for wanting to purposely grab attention to boost my ego, but right now I have something very important to say... come between me and stand in the way of something that I desperately want, you will feel the maximum punishment and you will feel hurt like you have never felt hurt before. Of course, it all sounds cliche, and I agree with that - it DOES sound cliche... but I'm positively sure that in the end, you'll agree with me if you're able to speak without feeling the fractured jaw. You shouldn't look forward to that, and if you do, I might as well kill you in the process. Flirting with death may be fun and amusing at first, but it will soon be a marriage that you'll have no choice but to commit to forever."
Scratching behind his right shoulder, Davidson relieves himself of an itch that has been bothering him for a little while. Wouldn't it be nice if you could get rid of a problem in life that easy? That thorn in your side, that ache in your head, that ingrown toenail, that cramp in your stomach - all of it gone, so quickly and efficiently. Everything that pains you in life won't be easy to get rid of, time usually has a factor in it all.
Davidson: "You're a challenge, that's something that I'm not going to lie about or be afraid to admit. And just because you're a challenge, doesn't mean that there's something that I don't like about you. There are many things that come to mind that I can admire you for and just a few of those things are your consistency, your dedication and preparation for this sport. They are all departments that I have been lacking in for the better part of the past two years. Because of you having all of them, it's pushing me to try and repair what I lost over time. In a way, you're one of my biggest and most difficult enemies while you're also starting to become an influence of what I aim to become. Enough of sounding sappy, because you're not so special because of that - there's something in all of my opponents from the past that I try to match up in. In consistency, dedication and preparation, I tried to exceed everybody's... from Benjamin Stephens back in BWA to Seifer here in FWA. It's not easy to have it all and be it all, so I try my best to replicate myself after everybody I've gone up against and become a hybrid wrestler with knowledge in almost everything imaginable. It's hard to shape and form myself into something like that, but I know that with enough consistency, dedication and preparation then I can become consistent, dedicated and prepared. Over the past few months, I have been feeling refreshed and unlimited, I'm starting to grow wings and be able to fly at ease and be right up there with all the people that I was brave enough to admit idolization for. I'm sure that there are people here in Fans Wrestling Alliance who stand and look up to me with great admiration for reasons I can't comprehend, but as long as they have a valid reason to, I can't argue with that. So while I attempt to dethrone you, and even metaphorically slay you, don't worry about me wanting to bury your whole career and white your name out of Fans Wrestling Alliance's history books - I respect what you have done, and since you haven't done anything negative in this federation so far, there's no need for me to eradicate your existence from here, it would just be foolish of somebody to do such a thing... I'm better than that. So rather than me just completely obliterate a person's name and act like I had no kind of history with them at all, I would prefer people be informed of the past and know what happened instead of being one of those wide-eyed and ignorant fans sitting like they're seeing something surreal. I want people to remember our encounters and collisions, Rez. I want it to create an impression that will last forever."
That's the ideal dream in professional wrestling - to create a legacy that everybody will look up to and respect. For some, it's the hardest thing to do because the work to put into it isn't as easy as some make it out to be. For the others, it's not a difficult task to achieve. You're so used to it that you can do it whenever you want to and anytime you want to, with anybody, anywhere. You have the talent to do such a thing because you've had experience at doing it before, so for you, nothing out of the norm.
Davidson: "There are some who get the best of me and because of them, I push myself to my limits. Without a doubt, you're one of those handful of superstars who are actually capable of helping me do that and beyond - I'm sure that's something you're already aware of, too. That's partially a good thing, because it allows me to see how far I can really go when driven and eager to succeed. Of course, there's that repercussion of feeling burnt out in the end, but it doesn't take long for the fire to roar again as somebody later adds fuel to the flames like the idiot they are. Little do they know, the dragon is just napping to rest up so his battle wounds can heal. When you awake him from his short sleep, you'll only infuriate it, causing it to burn and scorch you all over. You were one of the smart people, Ramirez, because you decided to take a swing at me when I was ready to fight and wreak havoc. Rather than going after me when I was wanting some time to recover and stand around, expecting things to be giving to me, you decided to go after me in a way that might seem a bit odd to some. You never physically started anything, you never beat me up or knocked me out. Instead, you just had to become the Reckless champion to make this all happen. In the distance, it seems miniscule, but when you approach the Reckless title - you don't know what's behind it because a shadow grows and begins to kill the shining light. Perhaps Alex Redding should have put up a sign saying 'Do Not Touch the Reckless Title When the Dragon is Out of the Den'. But I'm sure you did it on purpose, didn't you? Curiosity kills the cat, but it's evident to me that you're not a pussy. You must have done this on purpose, just to have a taste of what I could do at my full potential. You're now preparing yourself for what is to come, and I like to see that from somebody like you, but I expected nothing less. It seems that most wrestlers I butt heads with these days are prepared and I would like nothing but that from the ones I fight. If I had a choice of fighting hundreds of superstars that didn't bring anything to the ring with them for the rest of my career, or go up against some of the biggest names and lose against them in memorable matches, I would easily pick the latter. There's no need to explain, it's just logical. I'm here for a challenge and two years in FWA, I'm still finding myself going up against the biggest challenges of my life. Either I'm too damn stubborn to go after something new or I just can't get enough of the Reckless title because it leaves a taste in my mouth that I crave, I can't really pinpoint the reason why I'm standing in the same spot since I came here in 2006. It's an unsolved mystery that I hope I don't find the answer to."
More than half of his whole career in Fans Wrestling Alliance can be found in the Reckless division. It has been called his home many times by many people, it has been his focal point in this industry. Nothing outside of it was interesting enough for him to venture out to and take part in, it was his sanitorium. He felt like his was useless without it, he was under the impression he had no importance without that division and without that title. While that is completely false, he only believes that so that he puts on his best showing for something that means so much to so little.
Davidson: "You question me and wonder when I'm finally going to bring my best against you, and I'm trying to tell you, it's coming. It is coming. Whether you want to believe me or not, it's up to you, but now that you're lying in the hospital, I'm sure that you probably have a rough idea that it's almost here. I'm sporadic when it comes to bringing my best. It's unfortunate, because sometimes my opponents are ready to go while I'm just standing there not giving my best effort. I've done that one too many times in the past and to some of those people, I apologize. It happened recently, that I know - but it was hard, I really wanted to do my utmost but I just couldn't. For example, when I was wrestling against Seifer for the Attitude championship in the summer, he was ready for me to come out backstage swinging. I just didn't have the drive to win the Attitude championship like I had the drive to win the Reckless championship. Seifer was a good opponent, fresh and difficult to keep up with, but I know that I could have done a better job. He even knew it, too. So someday, if I'm lucky enough to win the Reckless title from Ramirez, I could have a rematch with Seifer where both of our titles are put up for grabs. That way, I know we could step up to a new plateau where we fight each other like we've never faught before. Only problem is, it's more difficult than it sounds. The only thing that is preventing it from happening is Ramirez, and that's one Hell of a prevention, I might add. But the Reckless title is my only desire, it pursues me to do better and I definitely will be brining a lot to the table until he cannot take no more. It's a longshot, at least from my point of view, but it can be done. I've beaten JT Kash to become the Reckless champion and I've defended the belt against him later, I've beaten Deus to become the Reckless champion and I've defended the belt against him later, so hopefully I can beat Ramirez to become the Reckless champion. Hopefully - I can defend the belt against him later. This is more than a battle for supremacy, it's a war that nobody can win. We both got a lot going for us, it might be one of those matches so unpredictable that people who see are so lost the blind could show them what they're not looking at properly. A full moon is rising, I have a hunch that we're all going to go a little bit crazy."
Grabbing the book written by Ken Kesey, Davidson continues on reading the text in this adventurous and expansive story as told by Chief Bromden. A mental asylum, it should be the place where he resides rather than the outside world. With his schizophernia and dealings with Nos, he should have been there years ago and perhaps by now he would be cured of his problems. Pills. Pills are the answer, the doctors said. He just looks at it as the only resort given to him by these men wearing white. They're lying, he knows it. But even the pills don't do any help. The only thing that helps him in the slightest is his asylum, his place of comfort, his sanitorium in the Reckless division.
After flipping through a couple of pages, Davidson nods his head, understanding what he is reading. Big Chief. Chief Bromden, that Native Man that pretends to be deaf and dumb. There are so many people like him in life, isolating themselves from society and while people ridicule them and think of them as morons, they really have a lot of intelligence and could blow you away. You would be astounded by hearing somebody's story if they told it to you. Like Star Wars, there probably wouldn't be a word for that, either. Your reaction, that is. This world is so critical that some people take it to heart and get upset over it. While it does hurt, you shouldn't shed a tear, you should just prove to them that what they're criticising means something to at least somebody, making them feel better about themselves. When was the last time criticism helped anybody? It does more harm then good, even if it's aimed to be friendly.
Finishing up a chapter, Davidson closes the novel and sets it at his side, dog-earing the pages as he applies pressure on the spine of the book with his right palm. He sees the camera dollying from the right, putting him right in the centre. He gives his head a little nod and that smug smirk returns to create that infamous face he's been known for having every day for the past five years. It's annoying, yet it's comical. He has that face that you just want to punch, but at the same time, it should be confined in a frame in a very detailed photograph.
Davidson: "Hurts, don't it?"
That grin grows wider as his posture fixes.
Davidson: "You know, Ramirez, I told you to keep looking over your shoulder to see whether or not I was going to come and assault you - and this time, I was for real. I was standing behind you, steel chair grasped in hand, and you were the victim who I fatally struck. Unfortunately for you, you got an even worse beat down as I crumbled you through a table, having tiny bits of wood turn to splinters, burrowing deep into your back. Fragments of wood should fill every hole in your midsection, you should also feel the bite and scratch every time you roll over in your sleep, causing you to awaken and cry out in pain. Your wounds are my creations, so I must ask, how are they treating you? Or are you still lying there, sound, unable to open your eyes from the sleep in which I put you in? I might as well drop by the hospital and give you a 'Get Well' card to help raise your spirits that are probably in limbo. However, when you open it, I suspect your heart to suddenly stop beating as you'll be reminded of the brutal ordeal you went through that put you where you lay uncomfortably numb. While we had both won our individual matches on Conflict, I walked out the better man that night - but how? It's simple and quite obvious - I walked out with independence while you, on the other hand, had assistance and was wheeled out on a stretcher. Now I know that as soon as you wake up, you're going to be all pissed off about what I did to you and even know the reason why I had done such a thing, but let that be a reminder to you if you have any brain cells left after those brutal collisions between steel and skull. The next time you choose to fuck around with a guy who doesn't give up, let down or want to keep something so important such as the Reckless championship out of their sight - me, for example - shit like this is bound to happen. In the future, it's going to get worse for you - count on it. Understand this; there are more superstars out there, more difficult than me. Make a smart decision for yourself and don't intentionally piss them off because you sit on a throne. Other folks in Fans Wrestling Alliance should also listen up and listen well to what I have to say. Take a look at me, I'm not one for wanting to purposely grab attention to boost my ego, but right now I have something very important to say... come between me and stand in the way of something that I desperately want, you will feel the maximum punishment and you will feel hurt like you have never felt hurt before. Of course, it all sounds cliche, and I agree with that - it DOES sound cliche... but I'm positively sure that in the end, you'll agree with me if you're able to speak without feeling the fractured jaw. You shouldn't look forward to that, and if you do, I might as well kill you in the process. Flirting with death may be fun and amusing at first, but it will soon be a marriage that you'll have no choice but to commit to forever."
Scratching behind his right shoulder, Davidson relieves himself of an itch that has been bothering him for a little while. Wouldn't it be nice if you could get rid of a problem in life that easy? That thorn in your side, that ache in your head, that ingrown toenail, that cramp in your stomach - all of it gone, so quickly and efficiently. Everything that pains you in life won't be easy to get rid of, time usually has a factor in it all.
Davidson: "You're a challenge, that's something that I'm not going to lie about or be afraid to admit. And just because you're a challenge, doesn't mean that there's something that I don't like about you. There are many things that come to mind that I can admire you for and just a few of those things are your consistency, your dedication and preparation for this sport. They are all departments that I have been lacking in for the better part of the past two years. Because of you having all of them, it's pushing me to try and repair what I lost over time. In a way, you're one of my biggest and most difficult enemies while you're also starting to become an influence of what I aim to become. Enough of sounding sappy, because you're not so special because of that - there's something in all of my opponents from the past that I try to match up in. In consistency, dedication and preparation, I tried to exceed everybody's... from Benjamin Stephens back in BWA to Seifer here in FWA. It's not easy to have it all and be it all, so I try my best to replicate myself after everybody I've gone up against and become a hybrid wrestler with knowledge in almost everything imaginable. It's hard to shape and form myself into something like that, but I know that with enough consistency, dedication and preparation then I can become consistent, dedicated and prepared. Over the past few months, I have been feeling refreshed and unlimited, I'm starting to grow wings and be able to fly at ease and be right up there with all the people that I was brave enough to admit idolization for. I'm sure that there are people here in Fans Wrestling Alliance who stand and look up to me with great admiration for reasons I can't comprehend, but as long as they have a valid reason to, I can't argue with that. So while I attempt to dethrone you, and even metaphorically slay you, don't worry about me wanting to bury your whole career and white your name out of Fans Wrestling Alliance's history books - I respect what you have done, and since you haven't done anything negative in this federation so far, there's no need for me to eradicate your existence from here, it would just be foolish of somebody to do such a thing... I'm better than that. So rather than me just completely obliterate a person's name and act like I had no kind of history with them at all, I would prefer people be informed of the past and know what happened instead of being one of those wide-eyed and ignorant fans sitting like they're seeing something surreal. I want people to remember our encounters and collisions, Rez. I want it to create an impression that will last forever."
That's the ideal dream in professional wrestling - to create a legacy that everybody will look up to and respect. For some, it's the hardest thing to do because the work to put into it isn't as easy as some make it out to be. For the others, it's not a difficult task to achieve. You're so used to it that you can do it whenever you want to and anytime you want to, with anybody, anywhere. You have the talent to do such a thing because you've had experience at doing it before, so for you, nothing out of the norm.
Davidson: "There are some who get the best of me and because of them, I push myself to my limits. Without a doubt, you're one of those handful of superstars who are actually capable of helping me do that and beyond - I'm sure that's something you're already aware of, too. That's partially a good thing, because it allows me to see how far I can really go when driven and eager to succeed. Of course, there's that repercussion of feeling burnt out in the end, but it doesn't take long for the fire to roar again as somebody later adds fuel to the flames like the idiot they are. Little do they know, the dragon is just napping to rest up so his battle wounds can heal. When you awake him from his short sleep, you'll only infuriate it, causing it to burn and scorch you all over. You were one of the smart people, Ramirez, because you decided to take a swing at me when I was ready to fight and wreak havoc. Rather than going after me when I was wanting some time to recover and stand around, expecting things to be giving to me, you decided to go after me in a way that might seem a bit odd to some. You never physically started anything, you never beat me up or knocked me out. Instead, you just had to become the Reckless champion to make this all happen. In the distance, it seems miniscule, but when you approach the Reckless title - you don't know what's behind it because a shadow grows and begins to kill the shining light. Perhaps Alex Redding should have put up a sign saying 'Do Not Touch the Reckless Title When the Dragon is Out of the Den'. But I'm sure you did it on purpose, didn't you? Curiosity kills the cat, but it's evident to me that you're not a pussy. You must have done this on purpose, just to have a taste of what I could do at my full potential. You're now preparing yourself for what is to come, and I like to see that from somebody like you, but I expected nothing less. It seems that most wrestlers I butt heads with these days are prepared and I would like nothing but that from the ones I fight. If I had a choice of fighting hundreds of superstars that didn't bring anything to the ring with them for the rest of my career, or go up against some of the biggest names and lose against them in memorable matches, I would easily pick the latter. There's no need to explain, it's just logical. I'm here for a challenge and two years in FWA, I'm still finding myself going up against the biggest challenges of my life. Either I'm too damn stubborn to go after something new or I just can't get enough of the Reckless title because it leaves a taste in my mouth that I crave, I can't really pinpoint the reason why I'm standing in the same spot since I came here in 2006. It's an unsolved mystery that I hope I don't find the answer to."
More than half of his whole career in Fans Wrestling Alliance can be found in the Reckless division. It has been called his home many times by many people, it has been his focal point in this industry. Nothing outside of it was interesting enough for him to venture out to and take part in, it was his sanitorium. He felt like his was useless without it, he was under the impression he had no importance without that division and without that title. While that is completely false, he only believes that so that he puts on his best showing for something that means so much to so little.
Davidson: "You question me and wonder when I'm finally going to bring my best against you, and I'm trying to tell you, it's coming. It is coming. Whether you want to believe me or not, it's up to you, but now that you're lying in the hospital, I'm sure that you probably have a rough idea that it's almost here. I'm sporadic when it comes to bringing my best. It's unfortunate, because sometimes my opponents are ready to go while I'm just standing there not giving my best effort. I've done that one too many times in the past and to some of those people, I apologize. It happened recently, that I know - but it was hard, I really wanted to do my utmost but I just couldn't. For example, when I was wrestling against Seifer for the Attitude championship in the summer, he was ready for me to come out backstage swinging. I just didn't have the drive to win the Attitude championship like I had the drive to win the Reckless championship. Seifer was a good opponent, fresh and difficult to keep up with, but I know that I could have done a better job. He even knew it, too. So someday, if I'm lucky enough to win the Reckless title from Ramirez, I could have a rematch with Seifer where both of our titles are put up for grabs. That way, I know we could step up to a new plateau where we fight each other like we've never faught before. Only problem is, it's more difficult than it sounds. The only thing that is preventing it from happening is Ramirez, and that's one Hell of a prevention, I might add. But the Reckless title is my only desire, it pursues me to do better and I definitely will be brining a lot to the table until he cannot take no more. It's a longshot, at least from my point of view, but it can be done. I've beaten JT Kash to become the Reckless champion and I've defended the belt against him later, I've beaten Deus to become the Reckless champion and I've defended the belt against him later, so hopefully I can beat Ramirez to become the Reckless champion. Hopefully - I can defend the belt against him later. This is more than a battle for supremacy, it's a war that nobody can win. We both got a lot going for us, it might be one of those matches so unpredictable that people who see are so lost the blind could show them what they're not looking at properly. A full moon is rising, I have a hunch that we're all going to go a little bit crazy."
Grabbing the book written by Ken Kesey, Davidson continues on reading the text in this adventurous and expansive story as told by Chief Bromden. A mental asylum, it should be the place where he resides rather than the outside world. With his schizophernia and dealings with Nos, he should have been there years ago and perhaps by now he would be cured of his problems. Pills. Pills are the answer, the doctors said. He just looks at it as the only resort given to him by these men wearing white. They're lying, he knows it. But even the pills don't do any help. The only thing that helps him in the slightest is his asylum, his place of comfort, his sanitorium in the Reckless division.